it's time to spill some beans! why? being i am leaving for california and am really lacking in motivation.
at the end of may i got some poopy life changing news... well... i was laid off from my job. nothing to do with my professional career woman skillz. just a big business buyout. anyway i had the opportunity to work until last friday which means that since yesterday i have been a real lady of leisure.
i had a couple of interviews at a new company, and thought that everything was going really well, but they decided to go with an internal candidate instead, because they would already know the ropes of the company and stuff.
so my problem now is that i am home with "nothing" to do. i say "nothing" like that with those quotation marks because it's not like i really have nothing to do. yesterday i went to the library and to a vegetable market, today i am going to the sewing studio to finish my dress, etc... the problem is twofold. 1) i can't just watch tvs all day - it's too boring for me. i have not not had a job since i was 15. i need to feel productive, otherwise i feel guilty. guilty about what? i don't know... who can explain the workings of the inner mind. i'm hoping this feeling will subside. 2) i am at home all day = BOREDOM EATING. my whole day is trying to resist eating from boredom. i have to say that i have a new respect for SATMs. i always knew it was easier to have an eating routine at work! i am leaving for vacation on sunday morning and i'd prefer not to feel like a blob since i couldn't keep my hands off the loaf of bread. yes people, this is what i'm going for... dempster's run-of-the-mill, whole wheat bread.
and then there is this bum pain. it gets better and worse throughout the day but when i wake up in the morning i can hardly walk over to the kettle. but don't worry - i have a doctor's appointment tomorrow morning. i'm hoping for an instant cure. ;o) i want to go runnning so badly but it's out of the question. yesterday i went swimming and that was fine. i am going again today.
for breakfast today i had a big fruit salad. strawberries, blueberries, blackberries, 1/2 banana and a source tango yogurt. for lunch i will have a turkey and sprouts sandwich on whole wheat with hummus and another source yogurt. and for dinner... not sure yet.
does anyone have any stay-at-home advice?