what to do what to do

i have a dilemma. since i am not working my life is pretty lax. i go to bed late, wake up late, do whatever i want (within reason) and eat whatever i want. this lack of routine kind of has me feeling drained. especially lately. is it allergy season or something? i can't decide if the tickle in my nose is allergies or an oncoming sickness that is threatening me but never comes.

i think i need to eat better. i know it's easier to eat healthily when following a routine (for example, working) but i don't want to wake up two months from now and be a blob or something resembling that. i'm not really gaining weight but since i'm not running i think i'm losing muscle mass and my shape is changing. maybe i'm losing muscle weight and gaining fat weight and since muscle weighs more i'm gaining fat and that's not good. maybe. i need one of those fat scales but at this point in my life that might be an excessive investment!

so what do to what to do? i don't want to be that strict with myself but i want to feel better. maybe an 80 to 20% ratio of good choices? instead of 90 to 10% i mean. not sure. maybe smaller portions? trying different foods? who knows. writing everything down?

that sounds alright. today i will write everything down. maybe later i will look at the canadian food guidelines to see if i'm missing anything.

shoes

i didn't go to whole foods and i'm not going tonight either. well, i'm probably not going tonight. instead i'm going to the nine west shoe outlet. it's way up north on dufferin. my car is out of the shop so i'm free to drive wherever i want to go - maybe i'll even drive to the whole foods after. maybe. probably not.

i'm feeling pretty low this week. my bf is really busy and i feel like i don't have enough people to hang out with. i'm starting this "learn-to-run" class at my gym next week, so maybe i'll meet some nice people there. it's hard to meet people who don't end up talking about you behind your back or just being plain do-dos in general. anyhoo. i've dropped all my weight from last weekend. that wasn't too hard :)

menu:

breakfast:
shreddies and milk, tiny amount to ward off vitamin nausea (1)
oatmeal (2)
strawberries (0)
3/19

lunch:
chef boyardee mac and cheese (3)
2 slices ww bread (1)
1 slice mozza cheese (1)
8/19

snack:
2 rye crackers (1)
yogurt (1)
10/19

dinner: i don't know. i have to go shopping for vegetables.

i wish my veggies wore accessories too.