keep going

i really was oscar the grouch yesterday. when i got back to the city, i had an email from one of the companies. a rejection email! surprisingly i'm not that bummed about the job. i feel a sense of peace because i know. knowledge is power. anyway, being turned down motivated me to send an email to the other company, asking about the status of the job and just mentioning again why i'm the best person for the job. maybe being pushy like that is a good idea, maybe not. it can't hurt. at least now if they haven't chosen a candidate yet, i will be in their mind as a motivated person. and i feel like i've done everything i possibly can, so there is no self-doubt. if i get the job, i will be ecstatic. and if not, i will try to convince myself that it wasn't meant to be, and that something else will come along soon.

last night my book club potluck was a great success. there was lots of yummy food and fun times. it was a big mess but i cleaned it up pretty fast by dumping all the leftover food. what is the point of keeping it if i'm not going to eat it. like leftover slices of homemade pizza, spinach dip, those little baked appetizers, etc. there were also some cookies and holiday treats, but i think they were re-partied to begin with. and not really that good or exciting. i wouldn't re-party them, because i wouldn't want to say they were leftovers, and i definitely wouldn't want to imply that i made them! so into the garbage they went.

tonight is my boyfriend's holiday work party. i am bringing the cookies i made (all four kinds from the kraft website listed a few posts back) and lower fat oreos half dipped in melted white chocolate and sprinkled with green sprinkles. yummo :)

yesterday i didn't get in any exercise, but i woke up early this morning and swam for 30 minutes. i really didn't want to but once i started it was fine... better than fine... good!

apparently the city is being attacked by "snowmageddon" tomorrow morning and all day. i didn't make up that word... the weather people did!

another blog?

i'm thinking about starting another blog, one that isn't so personal but rather based on health and beauty in general. nothing to do with my own health, fitness, and weight goals but something more helpful to others. thoughts? of course i would continue this blog... just putting it out there.

i am feeling really good about myself today. i swam for 30 minutes this morning even though i had to convince myself not to go back to bed instead about five times. i had a great swim though. it was just getting down there and in the pool that was the hard part.

also, i'm really hungry today. instead of oatmeal for breakfast, i had an english muffin with peanut butter, yogurt and fresh cranberries. maybe it wasn't as filling? does anyone like fresh cranberries? they are so tart and delicious. and did you know that they are white on the inside? i wasn't expecting that at all! i think they are high in fibre, too. can't go wrong!

for lunch i brought a whole wheat bun, veggies and hummus, and a ready-to-go campbell's healthy request italian wedding soup. italian wedding soup is sooooo good. all of those little balls of pasta! i'm excited.

tonight i am taking one of my oldest friends to see "sharon jones and the dap kings" live in concert. i have seen them once before and they are amazing!

now i need to get a coffee to distract myself from this raging hunger.

one day success

i forgot how easy it is to stay motivated when you have one great day under your belt. yesterday i worked out, i didn't snack, i didn't eat anything after dinner, and i stuck to my meal plan. even though it was just one day and this is most likely psychological, i already feel better about myself, and i'm "excited"* to stay on plan today and tomorrow. *excited is obviously a relative term haha.

i was a bit hungry last night when i went to bed but i just sucked it up. i went to bed at 10pm which is unusual for me because i am always pushing it with sleep. i turned out the lights at 10:30 and slept until 6:30 and getting enough sleep truly is an amazing feeling. everytime i get 8 hours i love it, so why don't i make it a priority? do i think waking hours are more productive than sleeping ones? depends on your definition of productive i guess. a healthy body needs sleep so i'm going to start viewing sleep as something productive.

my bum still hurts today, but it's my own fault really. last night i soaked in the tub and it felt a bit better. this morning it felt the same (a bit better) and i went downstairs to the gym, which probably aggravated it again. mama mia! i could *not* work out, but i don't want to right now. exercise relaxes me. i did the 45 running workout that i did yesterday, as well as 15 extra running minutes on the end to make up 5 miles. also some arm strength training and sit-ups.

i am wearing my tight jeans today. they are still too tight, but i wanted to squeeze into them to remind me of what happens when i eat too many rainbow twizzlers. they aren't tight in the waist, i couldn't handle that, more like the thigh and bottom area... so it's not that annoying really.

here is my menu today:

1 packet high fibre berry medley quaker oatmeal
1/2 cup all bran mixed in
1 T ground flax mixed in
1 source yogurt

1 cup plain 2% yogurt
1/2 cup pure pumpkin
1/2 cup raspberries
1/2 cup baby tomatoes
28 baby carrots
1 high fibre pita

can of tuna
steamed cauliflower
2 slices sprouted grains toast
spinach salad with fat free caesar dressing
baby tomatoes

tuesday

i am feeling much better today, thanks everybody. =D

but for the record, yesterday's post wasn't about sharing a problem or making some sort of giant confession. i just can link eating too much cookie dough to feeling upset about something. and the truth is, the cookie dough did help. it was pretty delicious. it's weird. when i feel upset in an outraged sort of way i can eat through the problem, but if i was upset about a personal problem and felt sad or guilty, my appetite would be non-existent.

but today is a new day. i went to the gym last night and did 4 miles on the treadmill. it was hard because i felt so exhausted in an emo way but i pushed through it. i had to walk a few times but got in 30 minutes total of running which is my goal. i also did some weights and 4 miles on the stationary bike. and today i brought 75% of the cookies to work for my coworkers to eat. evil? maybe.

i made another big salad (this tends to be a monday trend) which consisted of spinach, roasted cauliflower and onion, carrots, almonds, raisins, dried apricots, baby tomatoes, and two chicken wieners cut up. now that i list all the ingredients it sounds pretty gross but it was good. i also went grocery shopping and stocked up on lean cuisines - they are on sale for $1.99. a little bird was saying "cheap cheap" in my ear.

today's menu is:

breakfast:
quaker weight control oatmeal (2)
strawberries (0.5)

snack:
clementine (0.5)
yogurt (1)

lunch:
2 slices ww toast (1)
campbell's chunky beef soup (5)

snack:
yogurt (1)
all bran mixed in (0.5)

dinner:
maybe another spinach salad with a sol cuisine veggie burger chopped into it. (?)