why oh why

do i never feel that great on mondays? i had a good weekend, and i let myself sleep in a bit today, so i should feel great! but i don't really. i want to go back to bed but i won't because then i won't be able to sleep tonight. i didn't lose any weight this week. i don't know what i am doing wrong. i'm eating within my points, exercising, etc. but nothing. i'm not too concerned right now anyway. this week i am going to keep at it, but maybe try to eat less carbs and more protein. i really do eat a lot of bread. why is it the best food?

yesterday was an active day. i rode my bike to queen's park for the word on the street book and magazine festival. i watched some people speak, subscribed (for cheap) to toronto life magazine, talked to people at my old job's booth, and saw some old friends. and i ate a small twist soft ice cream cone from a truck. it was delicious! anyway it was sort of far away and i did a lot of walking. when i came home i did day two week two of the couch to 5k program and it really hurt my bottom. it's piriformis syndrome which i can't really prevent except by stretching so that is what i'm doing. i feel weird stretching before running because my muscles are so stiff. does anyone else stretch before running or warming up at all?

today i have big plans to apply for more jobs, and i have an interview in the early afternoon. wish me luck!

bloaty mcfat feet

i am so pooped today. i have been watching heroes season one on my computer and last night it was too exciting and i stayed up really late watching it. i am paying for it today!

i am so bloated today. number one: my skinny jeans, which fit with lots of room on friday, didn't fit today. they fit in the thighs and waist, but not the calves! isn't that so weird!?!? i am so bloated. i put on sandals to go outside and it's like i was wearing a smaller size of shoe! what could have caused this crazy bloat... i have no idea. today i'm taking it easy and drinking lots of water and hopefully it will be gone by tomorrow.

i finally reached a "happy weight" on saturday, but today i am back up five pounds. there is no way i gained five pounds on the weekend, especially since i didn't drink anything on friday or sunday, and made relatively healthy choices. all of my excess weight must be water that is retaining in my lower legs and feet. seriously, it's so weird!

i got up early today because i thought i was going to help my mom at work (for a little extra cash) but they didn't need me today. i went grocery shopping and bought a lot of fruits and veggies... things i desperately needed! and that's about it. oh right, photos of my hair. i will upload some today and post tomorrow. :) now maybe a nap!

what to do what to do

i have a dilemma. since i am not working my life is pretty lax. i go to bed late, wake up late, do whatever i want (within reason) and eat whatever i want. this lack of routine kind of has me feeling drained. especially lately. is it allergy season or something? i can't decide if the tickle in my nose is allergies or an oncoming sickness that is threatening me but never comes.

i think i need to eat better. i know it's easier to eat healthily when following a routine (for example, working) but i don't want to wake up two months from now and be a blob or something resembling that. i'm not really gaining weight but since i'm not running i think i'm losing muscle mass and my shape is changing. maybe i'm losing muscle weight and gaining fat weight and since muscle weighs more i'm gaining fat and that's not good. maybe. i need one of those fat scales but at this point in my life that might be an excessive investment!

so what do to what to do? i don't want to be that strict with myself but i want to feel better. maybe an 80 to 20% ratio of good choices? instead of 90 to 10% i mean. not sure. maybe smaller portions? trying different foods? who knows. writing everything down?

that sounds alright. today i will write everything down. maybe later i will look at the canadian food guidelines to see if i'm missing anything.

where the sky meets the sea

 

i haven't really sorted through the photos yet, but here is a nice one. it's somewhere on the road between san francisco and santa cruz. it doesn't look like a real photo because the ocean and beach shouldn't connect like that... i'm actually standing on the edge of a giant cliff (scary). it was so windy but beautiful. this is the just after we drove away from the san francisco fog and gloom. it was so weird how the division between fog and sun was so drastic and obvious. i got these purple pants in san francisco... love them!

yesterday i tried swimming but my leg was really hurting so i had to stop. my mom wants me to visit a chiropractor and i am seriously considering it. my boyfriend and i cleaned his apartment pretty much all afternoon - until about 7. i did the whole bathroom and under the stove elements. we might go back today... i'd rather just get it over with. he is so excited about it and so am i because it's in my old neighbourhood which i miss a lot. it's a bustling area... people are always out doing things on the street.

so i have the choice to see two movies. 1) mama mia and 2) the dark knight. what should i choose?

even with no exercise, my weight is going back down. thank you fibre :) i hate not being able to do hard core exercise. maybe this injury is my body's way of saying it was too much. when i feel better again i will definitely ease into something. being hardcore was fun while it lasted.

i also wanted to mention that the egg on oatmeal was totally delicious. people eat eggs on toast - toast is a grain like oatmeal... what's the difference? it wasn't flavoured or instant oatmeal people - i am not crazy! ;o)

moo it's monday

it's already 4pm and i've only now got a chance to log into blogger. busy day!

i had a pretty good weekend... my only real downfall was visiting my parents last night and watching my mom bake her famous chocolate chip cookies, eating (sneaking) dough, eating (ok, and sneaking) warm gooey cookies, taking more cookies back to my own house, eating more, etc. i brought most of them to work today and they were a big hit. the rest i put in the freezer.

this morning i got on the scale and it said 122.0 at first. this would be a 0.8 drop since friday. me losing weight on the weekends = never happens. so i got off the scale, looked underneath to see if maybe dust bunnies were creating some sort of scale fantasy weight, and got back on. this time it said "Lo." yes, thank you, i'd like it if the scale just confirmed that i was at a "Lo" weight, but i think it means low battery! it was quite a shock to realize how quickly i planned out where i could get new batteries for this scale (at a computer store or something). it goes to show that i don't want to be without that scale for even one day. sure, there may be days where i choose not to get on, but i always want to have that option! i'll be without tomorrow morning but that's alright. one day, i can handle. i mean, i'm not a crazy obsessive... or anything.

this morning i did run four of week three of the couch to 5k training podcasts. technically, i should have been doing week four, but i haven't downloaded it yet and there really isn't any harm in staying at this level until tuesday!

here is today's menu:
breakfast:
oatmeal (2)
1/2 banana (1)
3/19

lunch:
deli meat (1)
whole wheat baguette (2)
mixed veggies (0.5)
6.5/19

snack
2 cookies... or was it three! (3)
9.5/19

dinner:
i am going to this book gala, so i'm not quite sure. everything in moderation!

take care of business

after this past week and weekend, i found myself up a few pounds. i really can't explain the ways of the weight world. sometimes i eat more and lose, some times i eat more and gain. i'm sure it depends on a lot of factors that i don't always consider - exercise, time of day eating, etc. anyhoo. in order to rid myself of this excess poundage, i'm going to tcb right away and avoid snacking after dinner. i hate being hungry before bed but so it goes.

breakfast:
oatmeal (3)
3/19

lunch:
lean cuisine mango chicken curry (6)
lettuce underneath (0)
9/19

snack:
carrots (0)
yogurt (1)
2 rye crackers (1)
11/19

tonight is the premiere of the biggest loser... is everyone excited? i am!

weight woes

happy tuesday and september everyone! after a lovely 4-day holiday, i am back at work. i am also 3.6 pounds heavier than last week which is a bit disconcerting, but not that bad if i tcb (take care of business) right away. i did eat a lot of bbq on the weekend, and just sit around, and drink a lot of alcohol, and ate right before bed last night, so it's probably to be expected. i'm just going to take it in stride because it's not a huge deal. as long as i try not to snack unnecessarily between meals or late at night, i should be alright. i went to the gym yesterday which was nice. i'm only aiming for 3 times a week these days. anything more and i find i become obsessive about it, like trying to go every morning before work. i wanted to go this morning, but i was up before my alarm with horrible allergies. i walked to the shoppers by my house because i thought it opened at 7am, but it didn't open until 8am, so feeling rejected, i just went home and back to bed until 8. thankfully i now have reactine in me and my eyes aren't red, itchy blobs anymore.

here is today's menu:

breakfast:
peach (1)
oatmeal (3)
4/19

lunch:
pc blue menu veg. lasagna (6)
10/19

snack:
2 rye crackers (1)
peanut butter (1)
12/19

dinner:
i'm going out for dinner, possibly to the rivoli. not sure what i will have yet!

vitamins make me sick

i want to take vitamins, but every time i do i feel so sick inside, like i want to vomit. i always forget why i stop taking vitamins, too. today i took some and was sick - not very much, but still. i still feel really nauseated which is not the best feeling at work.

so far, i'm not really missing the weightwatchers online tools very much. i've been doing this for so long that i pretty much have it all figured out in my head. it helps to write stuff down so i know how much i can eat at dinner, and for snacks, etc., but otherwise no problems.

i've also started losing weight. i'm not really sure why - i thought my body was destined to be 125-130 pounds forever. i guess that isn't the case. i am finally below 125 so that's the goal i'm happy with. i haven't been eating any differently, although i have been adding more variety to my fitness routines.

breakfast:
oatmeal with strawberries (2)
2/19

lunch:
chunky soup (2)
2 slices rye bread (2)
6/19

snack:
yogurt with kamit puffs (2)
8/19

dinner: not sure, but i'm thinking some sort of veggie stir fry...