pressure to stay thin

no matter how much weight you have lost, or how much weight you still might have to lose, do you feel the pressure to stay thin? i would have to say that i do. and it's more of a pressure of my own making, but with the help of others... this might not make sense so i'll try to explain myself.

when i was heavier, nobody (except my mom) really said anything negative to me about my weight. guys i dated said they didn't care (i did and still do believe this), and girls certainly didn't mind having a friend heavier than they were. now that i am a thinner person, i feel a lot of pressure to stay this way. obviously i like getting compliments about my shape, i really do because it's very gratifying and i work really hard, but sometimes these comments just add to the pressure to stay thin. for example, my mom tells everyone that i run... everyone... even when i am right there which can be a little weird if i don't feel like talking about it. my parents are always telling my sister that she should be more active like me. i can tell that my friends who are on diet and exercise plans are envious that i am already at my goal.

it's like once you reach your weight loss goal and manage to keep it off for any amount of time, you are kind of held up on a weight loss pedestal. i can imagine that it is also this way for people who have lost a more significant amount of weight than i have, be it 60 or 70 or 100 pounds. people think you hold the key to the secrets of weight loss and getting fit.

i feel like if i fell off the wagon now, not only would i be letting myself down, but i'd also be letting down all the people in my life that build me up so much for living a (for the most part) healthy lifestyle. my boyfriend (who really loves ketchup chips) said that he used to eat ketchup chips every night, but doesn't anymore because of me and my healthy influence on him. that's pretty big! so my question is: do you feel the pressure?

this morning i ran 5 miles on the treadmill... it was pretty easy except my bum is hurting now. stupid bum! tonight is date night which i am looking forward to. i haven't had a wednesday date in weeks! is anyone (in canada) watching that new "make me a supermodel show?" i am... i am so happy there are male and female models... finally!

today on the menu:

1/2 cup cheerios
coffee

weight control cinnamon oatmeal
1 T flax
1/2 cup all bran
2 T pumpkin
1 t baking powder
1/2 t nutmeg
1/2 banana
2 strawberries (all i had left)

28 baby carrots
10 baby tomatoes
2 T skinny dips hummus

200 g plain 2% yogurt
100 g fat free vanilla pear yogurt
blueberries
blackberries
2 T pumpkin

plain oatmeal (if hungry)

probably homemade poutine and a turkey grill 'em and frozen veggies