i have a confession

today at lunchtime i ran 4 miles. and then i had a shower at work. it was divine. yes, my work has a shower. two actually. let's not dwell on it. the reason i haven't been commenting on any of your blogs this week is because ... i have not read them yet. i'm going to! i swear. i just couldn't watch the biggest loser finale on tuesday night and taped it and didn't want anyone to spoil it with their big yappity yaps. and so i avoided blog reading. surprisingly it was easy because a) i had NO time this week and b) there really wasn't any mention of the biggest loser in regular media sources - news, newspaper, the office water cooler, etc.

if i read on someone's blog who won it would be my own fault for reading it. people can post what they want and should be able to write about relevant tv shows in a timely fashion. anyway i watched last night and spent about 99% of the time fast-forwarding. i do not need to see recaps, thank you. who has the time for that? boring! and then i realized i didn't care about the winner. i didn't really care who won at all. i was happy that mike got so thin - he is only 18 and now can start over at a point in life when most people just start. i feel sorry for his brother though, because you know he's comparing himself to mike every second of the day. mike is the superhuman son who lost over 200 pounds and he is still overweight.

i went running on monday, wednesday and today. i am attending a wedding tomorrow so i switched around my running days. i feel really good about it. i went swimming on tuesday but did not enjoy it. i think i didn't wait long enough before swimming and felt like my stomach was in my neck the whole time.

one more thing ... what did i want to say ... oh right. i am doing a "cleanse." don't get all wacky, it's not like a fast or weird drink. it's just 2 pills in the morning and 2 at night. www.renewlife.ca. i am doing the 15-day first cleanse to prepare myself for the 30-day one, which i will do eventually, but i'm not sure when. random people in my real life kept recommending this cleanse to me - different groups of friends, too. one of my friend's friend's aunt is a holistic nutritionist and swears by these products. they are all natural so it can't hurt. so far (i am on day 2) i have not noticed any difference in ... anything ... but i do consume a lot of fibre anyway. probably more fibre than your average person. fibre is my friend. so fibrous and fibrey. have a good long weekend. i know i will. HA. i'm going to celebrate with a beer.

guess what?

my life is pretty awesome. i'm friends with this photographer guy - mostly through facebook - he shoots for the globe * and *mail and ma*clean's * magazine (i'm trying to derail search engines here haha - will it work?) anyway... he contacted me because he is shooting the cd cover of this disco-pop-funk band from que*bec and wants ME yes ME to be on it. at first i thought it was pretty ridiculous and that someone like ME shouldn't do that, but then i thought - why not!? i felt a bit shafted after i didn't become an aveda hair model a couple of months ago. and it should be really fun. i am going to jump on a bed in short shorts or something - which might seem a little weird to some, but i've been assured that it's going to be "cute" not "risque" and really, i'll only be young once so now is the time.

that's pretty much it - except the biggest loser finale is tonight.

today i'm eating:

cheerios with soy milk
a chocolate toffee treat
coffee coffee coffee
oatmeal with raspberries and blueberries
chili
2 slices whole wheat bread
edamame

let me end this post by saying that i love edamame. for those who don't know - it's soy beans in the pods. they come frozen in a bag and you boil them for just a few minutes until you have warm soybeans (still in the pods). then you make a yummy dip consisting of a) soy sauce and b) memories of thailand president's choice sauce. be warned - that thai sauce is spicy! so you dip, then you suck (out the beans.) mmmmm.